Good Day! I'm not quite much of a writer,myself! At least Im trying to be one! haha!
By the way, I am Marvi Sardalla a third year Mass Communication student at the University of San Jose-Recoletos.
It's been three years since I've been like this,uhhh quite a loner? I don't interact much with the people because I am shy type person. Now,I am taking one step at a time to gain my confidence and self esteem. It's kinda sad I've been like this for the last 15 years of my life. When you feel like you need someone to talk to,yet you are afraid that in the end the person will leave you.I believe nobody stays with your life forever. I know some people are just really curious when I feel sad or when I have a problem but the truth is that they don't even care.I find it hard trusting people easily.Being a loner is kinda hard,back when I was a kid I always get bullied with my classmates and I always end up crying when I go home. Those times,I feel like no would saved me from teasing with my classmates,even my brother and my sister.
Back then,I realized that no one could help me except myself. I try so hard to defend my self to them,but still I lose at the end.Sometimes I hate myself for being like this,a loser. I hate the world where I am in. Since then,I hate interacting and afraid at the same time to people specially those who are rich who think they own the world and arrogant. When I get mad or sad I just go out to our backyard and shout as loud as I could. When you're a loner,it's hard to find your comfort zone.You know,that feeling you need a place or talk to someone to make you feel better. I get annoyed when I am hearing some sweet talks to those people whom I knew. It seems I've shared quite enough about my experiences for being a loner,for now.Even I am loner,I still have those amazing people who are so very special to me.
It's hard to go out of your comfort zone but anything has to happen one step at a time.
Sometimes it okay to be alone...... but NOT FOR A LONG TIME...
Thank you for the time,frustrated loner we'll see each other next time. ^_^
